First off, Merry Christmas! I hope that if you've made it this far into your gift that you're smiling that smile of yours - the one only reserved for me. I want you to know that I feel so lucky and privileged to be your girlfriend. Sometimes I wake up and pinch myself (metaphorically speaking, anyway, cause - ow) that I get to have you in my life. In these three short months, you have become the most important person in my life. It's crazy to think someone could just eclipse your life so quickly, but you did it effortlessly, and I am so thankful you did.

I know that I've told you about my past, probably more things that I'd want to admit to anyone. I'm not proud of my past decisions in regard to relationships. There are some things I regret to an extent, but I think if things hadn't happened the way they did, I wouldn't be able to wholly appreciate this relationship and what you mean to me. You mean everything to me, truly. When I say I love you, it's because I can't contain this immense feeling inside my chest when we're together. I love who you are in every sense of the word. I love how you hold me when we're sleeping, how you constantly make me laugh till there's tears in my eyes, how I can be myself around you without judgment, and how I strive to be the version of myself when we're together.

I love maybe some superficial things about you as well - because let's be real, the superficial probably drew us together on that fateful night of tinder swiping. I know it sounds so cheesy to call you ethereal, but your beauty is literally out of this world. Your deep green eyes are so easy to get lost in, and I love kissing your pouty lips until we're both gasping for air. I don't know if I've ever been so attracted to someone on both an emotional and physical level before. I find myself constantly thinking about you, even in times I probably should be focusing on other things. You have such a hold on me, and I love that we have this deep connection. Even if sometimes that's to our detriment when we're both in weird moods, I never see it as a weakness, but a strength. I love that I can be with someone who feels emotions as hard as I do, because it makes me more cognizant of treating you the way you deserve to be treated - with absolute and uncondtional love and respect.

I love the time we spend together because it makes me feel like I'm a real person. We always have the best adventures - even if those adventures include watching shitty horror movies on the couch or cuddling in bed. I think you woke me from a long sleep, where I was just this zombie going through the motions. I'd go to work, sometimes I'd hang with friends or family, and I'd just exist. Nothing really excited me anymore. I don't want to say that I was depressed, but for a while I think I was. Nothing really brought the light into my eyes. Then we went swimming together, you kicked water into my face, and in spite of this, I kissed you. I wanted to do a lot more than that, but I knew, even in those few short hours, that this was something special. Something meant to last a long time.

Holidays are a lot. They're stressful and they can bring a lot of good and bad memories to the forefront. I know that being with you isn't always going to be easy, but it will always be worth it. I know that one day we will be married, curled up in front of a fireplace and a big ol tree, with our kids and our dog children as well, and that's what keeps me going. This sort of tangible future is one I have always wanted, but never knew I truly could acquire until we fell in love. And not to be extremely hallmark movie level of cheese, but that is the best Christmas gift you could have ever given me. Your love is something that could never be replicated or replaced. I want to continue learning you, loving you, and building this life with you. I'm pretty sure this letter has been so rambly and all over the place...but I just wanted you to know - I am so damn in love with you, Bree Elodie Wisett, and I can't wait to spend the rest of my Christmases with you.